Tea and Grace

As I began this post, I'm not even sure what to title this.  My blog is called tea and momentary grace because that's exactly what I am taking the time to do.  I'm drinking a cup of tea while it's still hot (gasp!) and taking a pause in my day to ask for and give myself a moment of grace.  This is not easy for me, I will say that.  I don't know when I became a constantly busy person, but I think it might have happened right around the time I became a mommy.  I'm constantly looking for ways to maximize my free time.  How can I get more done? What else can I straighten up and clean?  What load of laundry should I do?  If I only have the precious minutes of a nap time then how can I make the most of it... Yet, for my sanity and for my children, I have realized I need to stop and take a few minutes for myself.  Plus, I have been looking for a way to reflect on my life and record some of the memories since journaling is a thing of the past for me.  This is my answer.  

I am many things... wife, mother, teacher, daughter, friend, sister, lover of chocolate, hopeless romantic, a voracious reader, and many other things that I tend to forget about.  I have a family that I am crazy about... hubby, Mr. L and Little Lou.  They are my world and I revolve around them.  I'm not saying I do it well, but I do as well as I can.  The best thing one of my friends told me when I was pregnant with Mr. L was that God chose me to be his mommy (and now her mommy too) and there was no one else better for these children.  Out of all of the other pieces of advice, suggestions, and sometimes criticisms, this has stuck with me and what I remind myself of often (sometimes daily, or even hourly, to be honest).  God chose me.  He entrusted me with these two little babes.  He knew I would be the mommy they needed.  And that makes me feel empowered and overwhelmed and joyful and grateful all at the same time.  It gives me the strength when I feel like I am failing as a mommy and brings me joy when I marvel at the two little ones sleeping in their beds.  I am their mommy, and that is what I am meant to be doing.

I'm not committing this blog to be all about being a mom.  I'm hoping it will be a reflection of my life.  While motherhood is a pretty darn big part of it, I have other roles, and I have other passions too that I don't want to neglect.  For now though, I'm betting I'll be writing a lot about all the feelings that come and go with being a mommy to two little ones.  And that's okay with me.

Off to enjoy a few more sips of coffee before that little one upstairs napping decides she's ready to get up.